Switching Gears for a While

Since the meltdown on my last post, I've gone on an eating bender and have been a bit depressed about not only my weight, but financial issues and issues with my living situation.

I still have some fresh fruit/veg that I plan to juice before they start to rot, but im trying to juice around my roommates' schedules and do it when they are out so that I dont feel like im disturbing them. It's been hard because they seem to be staying home more lately and watching movies, so then I feel like a jackass running my loud ass juicer. So I just try to avoid that situation by waiting for them to leave.

That is one of the big reasons that once I use up all the fresh produce I currently have that I will not be juicing again until I get my own place. Its just not conducive to my current living situation. Things are already awkward and that is just one more awkward situation I can do without.

I also dont live near a bus stop and havent been making enough money to afford to call a cab to go to the grocery store every week for fresh produce. I feel weird asking my roommates for a ride. One of the requirements of my next place will be a closer proximity to a bus stop.

I have come up with a new plan to improve my diet and lose weight. Im just going to go back to counting calories and sticking to a 1200 calorie a day plan.

I share a fridge and fairly small freezer with 2 (soon to be 4) other people, so to avoid being a jackass who takes up all the freezer space, I decided to add canned soups to my diet, even though I hate canned food. The other components of my diet will be Boca patties, fresh apples, and frozen fruits/vegetables.

Due to space, I will only be able to buy a little bit of food at a time, so I'm going to try to have enough money each week to call a cab go shopping. It costs me $12 to go to the store and back via cab. Once I have my own place and fridge, I will be able to cut my shopping trips down to twice a month. (Can you tell I really want my own place?)

Here is the general daily meal plan I will follow:

Lunch
2 boca patties -320 calories
vegetable (frozen) -200 calories
fruit (apple) -100 calories
=620 calories


Dinner
2 boca patties -320 calories
1 can of progresso light low sodium soup -130-200 calories
fruit (frozen or apple) - 100 calories
=550-620 calories

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I didnt include breakfast because I usually dont eat breakfast. If I do happen to wake up some morning and want something to eat, I will just eat part of my lunch early.

I wont be able to start this until August 6 for financial reasons, so until then, I will be getting myself used to eating 1200 calories/day by lowering my current food intake. For the past week, I've been gorging on junk that I ordered from Schwan's. So any benefit I gained from the juice fast has been lost.

So to sum it up...I will try juice fasting again when my life circumstances improve and until then, I'm on a 1200 calorie/day plan. I want to add exercise to my regimen, but I feel uncomfortable exercising around my roommates. I dont have much privacy here and I'm a very private person...so I dont know what I'm going to do as far as that goes.

Juicing Day 10 - Pissed Off

Okay so I didnt expect to have lost much since the day before yesterday, but I damn sure didnt expect what I saw when I stepped on the scale this morning.

On day 8, I weighed in at 259.4. TODAY I WEIGH 263.8!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK....

On day 8 I did make some flax seed crackers, but I only used 1 cup of milled flax seed, water, 2-3 tablespoons of sriracha for flavor and just enough olive oil to lightly grease the pan I baked it in. I also sliced up ONE cucumber and topped it with 2 tablespoons of light dressing that only contained 50 calories. Along with my usual juice, thats all I fucking ate that day!

Yesterday I ate raw carrots, broccoli and kale using about 6 tablespoons of the same 50 calorie/per 2 tablespoons dressing that I used on day 8. Even with the dressing, that accounts for no more than 400 calories. I also had a juice at dinnertime.

I dont understand how I gained 4.4 fucking pounds in less than two motherfucking days. So apparently my body will not allow me to lose weight unless I just dont fucking eat at all or stick 100% to an all liquid juice fast and feel like shit all day.

Thats fucking great. What the fuck is even the point anymore? I dont know what to do!!!!!!! THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Juicing Day 9

So, it's become apparent that I am not able to get by on just juice and still be able to work normally. I've added one meal to my day that consists of vegetables, fruit and occasionally flax bread/crackers and brown rice. I will only eat a meal when I feel extremely hungry and weak.

I decided this yesterday evening when my hunger/weakness led to me making some flax bread, which I ate with some sliced cucumber dressed with tomato basil vinaigrette and ketchup.

This is not a good time for me to go through a full detox and feel the way I felt on days 7 and 8. I have to work seven days a week and meet a certain quota each day in order to pay my bills, so a juice fast in the truest sense will have to wait until I create more passive income and can afford to be bed bound for several days until I feel better.

Today I ate some veggies - broccoli, kale, carrots dressed with tomato basil vinaigrette and a little sriracha sauce.

I also made juice as usual.

Today's Juice Recipe

Apples
Cilantro
Pineapple
Papaya
Kiwi
Celery


So, while I may not lose weight as fast as I want by incorporating 1 meal back into my day, I think this will be easier to stick with and will stop me from dreaming about burgers or daydreaming about ordering pizza like I have been the past few days on the fast.

Juice Fasting Day 8

Feeling groggy today. I ate some strawberries last night because I was really hungry. Weight today is 259.4 Didnt get as much work done yesterday as I should have because I felt pretty crappy yesterday afternoon. Today feels like it will be a struggle too. Officially one week down today, 16 more weeks to go!

Juice Fast Day 7

I had a dream last night that I went to a restaurant and I ordered several gourmet burgers and took a bite out of each of them. lol

But strangely, I didnt wake up feeling hungry today. I stayed up way too late last night working on some things, so I got a late start to the day.

Its still hard to concentrate and I feel a tad dizzy and irritable.

Weighed myself this morning and was 260.2

I was in a hurry to make my first juice of the day, so instead of peeling the lemon like I usually do, I just cut it in half and juiced it peel and all. That was a mistake.

Of all the fruits and veggies I used in the juice...I just taste the overpowering flavor of lemon. :/

I like lemon and everything....but this is a little much. I didnt think it would be so strong considering that it was such a small lemon. *shrugs*


Today's Juice Recipe:

Kale
Broccoli
LEMON lol
Peaches
Kiwi
Pear
Pineapple
Papaya
Cucumber

Now I have to try to do some work even though my brain feels a bit spacey. :/

Juice Fasting - Day 6

Woke up feeling okay. Some occasional hunger pangs, but nothing extreme. Starting to wonder if I can afford to buy enough produce to see me through the month. I may have to cut down on some of the tropical fruits and even some of the veggies I bought this time. Things like mango, papaya, beets, kiwi and peaches may have to only be occasional purchases. I will stick to cheaper produce like apples, oranges, kale and lemon, and maybe celery and cucumber. The juices will be more boring, but I only have a couple hundred dollars each month for food.

Anyway, I weighed myself this morning and was 262.

Now off to listen to some music before I start my work day.


4:40 PM update: Really hungry, so having my dinner juice now. Having a hard time getting done with work b/c its hard to concentrate. Low on energy and hungry. Should feel better after the juice and multivitamin.

Juice Fasting Day 5

Woke up today feeling okay. Kinda hungry, but not ravenous.

Weighed myself this morning and was 264.8

Looking forward to my next juice.....It's only 1 pm, so not much to say at the moment.

Back to work...

Its now 7:30 PM and I still feel okay. No headache or detox symptoms yet.


Today's Juice Recipe
5 Kale leaves
1 cucumber
2 peaches
1 kiwi
1/4 of a mango
1 orange
Some papaya
Some pineapple
handful of cilantro

Juice Fasting Day 4

So yesterday was the first day I truly juice fasted. No solid food at all...just juice.

My brain was working overtime trying to convince me to order a pizza or eat a carrot or something solid, but I was determined to overpower these urges and I did.

I watched videos on YouTube about obesity, juicing and health to keep me focused on why I am doing this. Watching videos other people have posted while on juice fasts helped a lot. So many people saying that the first few days are the most difficult and that it gets easier makes me want to pull through the hard times and get to the good.

Also seeing how happy and energetic people on Day 10+ of their juice fast were makes me want to get there because lately I have been anything but happy and energetic.

I also have tied an important additional goal to my first juice fasting/weight loss goal. I have a project that I have been working on that I am anxious to complete and share with people, so I told myself that I would complete and share that project once I get to a weight of 230 pounds.

It is very important to me to finish this project and put it out into the world, so tying this goal to my weight loss goal gives me extra incentive to keep going.

I didnt weigh myself today because of the previous 3 days where I wasnt truly fasting. Check out Day 5's post for a weigh-in.

Juice Fasting Days 1-3

I'm on day 5 right now, but since I'm just starting this blog today, I will tell you what happened on the previous days now.

Day 1: Went to the store. Bought a bunch of fruits and vegetables...and unfortunately some junk food. Came home, ate the junk food...did not juice.

Day 2: Juiced, but got so hungry in the evening that I ate some milled flax, an apple, a pear and a carrot.

Day 3: Juiced, but made and ate flax crackers, sauteed yellow squash in olive oil and brown rice with tomato sauce.

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It was hard getting started, and I panicked a little when hunger started to set in...which led to me eating something in the evenings.

If you are starting a juice fast...or any kind of fast, be prepared to feel hunger and have a way to deal with that ahead of time. Realize that you are going to be hungry and that its OKAY!

Calm down, breathe and remember why you are doing this and what the outcome will be. You dont want to have to keep starting over again and again while your weight and health deteriorate.

Take it one day at a time. Remember that it's just food and the reason you are having to do this in the first place is because you have already eaten too much of the wrong food. This time is for fixing the past wrongs you have done by eating those foods. It's a gift to your body, not a deprivation. So tell your mind to shut the hell up, its going to be fine with just juice and you're not going to die.

It's all in your head. So make up your mind that you are going to do this and that no thoughts of panic from your brain are going to make you give up on this.